Our trip to Bethany Beach, DE was awesome. While we were beaching and relaxing, I spent some time brain storming the blog (the beach has a way of clearing your mind).
Since I’ve been blogging, I have honestly always struggled with finding my confident and consistent voice on paperyrain. Since having my “come to Jesus” moment with myself in Chicago, I have had some clarity in my blog (and in my life overall). When you aren’t happy with yourself, you don’t realize how much it clouds everything else in your life (your relationships, your job, and your ability to find your everyday joy). Getting back to my roots, in the South (southern by the grace of God), has brought me a lot of introspection and a level of contentment in my life that I had been missing.
This post is basically a celebration of starting to become comfortable with who I am and what this blog is becoming. Being in a bathing suit, on the internet, is terrifying, and I would’ve never done it before right now. But, this is my blog and its about my life. I have been working hard to find a better balance in the weight/health department, and I’m not where I want to be, but I also want to showcase/celebrate how far I have come with my journey (including self esteem and confidence, because that counts for something).
There tends to be so many people lined up to cut others down (and I’ve been guilty of it too many times), but for one of the first times, I’m ok with myself and the shift in power has swayed my way. I am putting myself out there (in an accidentally themed, minnie mouse bathing suit) because its not what someone else might think of me, its what I think of me that matters the most (and I think this bathing suit is stinking cute and I feel really cute in it!). Life is too short to not do what makes you feel good and spreading heart, not hate is step number one.